That night, I was so lost. It’s like going back to high school where you have to choose your course for college. In fact you don’t know what you want.
I really wish that I can just don’t care anything and dump my current job, full force on my blogging career.
But I can’t, because blogging doesn’t provide a constant amount of salary. I still have family to take care. I just can’t sacrifice it for the sake of passion.
And now I know the feeling of being a working adult. The moment when you off work and you just wish to stay at home and rest.
I know it should not be the reason that stops me from blogging. If it’s my passion, I will do no matter how tired I am.
I always thought I have a passion with it. Until today, it wasn’t.
Again, I lost my direction.
For my current job,I thought I was passionate for it. Indeed I learnt a lot of things, especially the knowledge about internet world included SEO and Google stuff. I’m thankful for all the training I have.
Again, job is always job. Now I’m becoming a robot and just complete task everyday.
I was so fueled when I just started for work. However, things getting different when you stay longer. The longer you work, the easiest you will become task oriented instead of being passionate.
Getting lost in my current job, getting lost in my passion. So I really wonder what am I doing. And sincerely hate this kind of feeling.
I’m looking for the fire, that sparks that keeps me going. Where have you gone?